forlorness..emptiness…loneliness..
it’s how life is to me at the moment…
yet, im glad and thankful…
that i’d get to be in solitude…
and i’d get to do the things that i’ll never be able to when the day comes that GOD surprises me and says, "My child, here’s the one for you…"
Summer is one of the seasons of the year that I really long for. Not only for the no school days, the swimming, the vacations and the outing but also because of the summer I have to spend every three years.
People have different ways of spending their summer. Here in the Philippines, every three years we don’t only experience summer heat by the sun but also of the politics that gears the Philippine elections whether it be presidential or local. This is how I enjoy my summer every three years.
As far as I can remember young as I am, my most memorable summers were not that of those times when we went out of town. The ones which I consider memorable were the 1992, 1995, 1998, 2001 and 2004 elections. I have a different experience because I belong to a political family.
Every time I don’t know if I should be proud of it or not because it is a fact that politics is dirty. But, what can I do? It is in my blood. My father always tells me “Don’t let people call you a politicians daughter because I am not a politician, I am a public servant.”. That at least is a relief. But, I enjoy it though because of the wins and victories, I learned a lot and I grew up with the chaotic arena that I just can’t run away from.
On every three years I spend my summer differently from all kids my age. Instead of going off for a vacation, swimming and playing I spend it with people from different walks of life and ages. The way I enjoy my summer is through the experiences that to me is in exchangeable because getting to know people brings a lot of joy to me. To most people it is not normal, but to me it is never a toil that I’d get to talk and to shake hands with different people.
Instead of doing nothing or just taking a rest at home I enjoy my summers every three years, campaigning. It is when I am busy going around places with my father, I stand as his personal secretary and his representative eveytime there is a youth rally. It is so fulfilling to me that I’d get to go up on stage campaign for my father and take a stand for the principles that I grew up with.
People always call me “Ang alas sa iyang amahan.”(The father’s lucky charm.) because no other official in our place could bring along their kids to campaign. For those of my age serious campaign is a bore but to me I never want to miss it because it comes only ones in three years.
But don’t get my wrong. I don’t have plans of getting myself into Philippine politics. I already had enough of it since I was young. What I am trying to say, now that I am a voter myself and election is coming again is that, “No matter how young we are we should take our place in the Philippine elections.”. We are citizens of this country and so we should never be apathetic to what is going on around. We have the right to make a choice. We can pave way for the youth to become a voice in our government system.
I know my recent post was a crap.It sounds so mushy. But, what can I do? It’s what i have in mind. I actually wrote it about two or three months ago for a freewriting in my journ class. My mind was kinda distorted while writing it coz I had alot of things in mind but surprisingly I got a good grade from it. Now, less than three weeks to go before classes ends i finally decided to post it. To shout out whatever is in that article.
hope u’ll learn from it…bcoz of it i’ve become cynic of love…
I could not think of anything or anyone else at the very moment but my superman. I know it sounds so cliché. Girls thinking of guys is never uncommon but to me whatever I feel right now is something unfamiliar that it chills me to the bone.
I wish I could write something that sounds so intellectual but I could not. Since I am given the freedom to write about what ever I want, I might as well write what fills my mind and my heart at the moment.
It’s the 14th of the month. Eight months ago I was career driven. I was alone yet ready to face the world with much determination. Those were the times that I knew I could stand on my own without anyone to lean on to, that I don’t need a man. But, I was wrong. Why? For it was when I met my superman.
I call him my superman because it was one of the movies we watched together. He’s my superman because he always comes to the rescue whenever I need him to. He comes at the most unexpected moment. Moments that are fleeting yet they will always remain in my memory being the happiest days of my life.
We shared moments but we never really got to the point of making things official. I believe he has something for me and I know he is not so insensitive not to notice my feelings for him but we remain as we are. Yet I started to wonder, what are we? That I don’t know.
I know he is not the guy for me or the guy whom I always dreamed of but still he seems so right. I am not blind to see that he is just like any other guy who could possibly be a cause of heartbreak. Yet, the more I see his flaws the more I love him. I have made a fool out of myself but I don’t care for all I know was that I was simply being true to myself that I am in love. Eight months seemed too long that if I look back I wouldn’t believe I was able to endure. Now, I myself could not believe that I got tired. I am tired of walking the extra mile for eight months.
Eight special months together that ended so suddenly. For eight months we shared experiences, dreams and ideas. For eight months we spent so much time to keep in touch no matter how busy we both are. For eight months I tried to enjoy what we share. Eight months have to end.
I would not go into detail of what happened. It may only be a misunderstanding but I consider it a sign for me to stop for awhile. But, doing nothing does not mean I have given up on him. Like I told him, “Ill wait, no matter how long it takes and ill hold on till there’s nothing for me to hold on to”. Waiting does not always mean constantly making the effort. I will always be here I am simply giving myself a break and my heart a rest. I am also saving up some tears because I might run out of it.
I never thought I would have to say goodbye to my superman. I never thought that I would be in such pain. I never thought I’ll love anyone as much as I love him. I never thought I would still end up alone.
Silence is my way of loving my superman. It is what suits us for the moment. He may not have felt my presence, I am hoping he would feel my absence.
White flag
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that
but If I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
or return to where we were but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door, I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
and I cause nothing but trouble, I understand if you can't talk to me again
and if you live by the rules of it's over
then I'm sure that that makes sense but
I will go down with this ship and put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door, I'm in love and always will be
and when we meet, which I'm sure we will
all that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
and you will think, that I've moved on
I will go down with this ship and put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door, I'm in love and always will be
Romantic Compatibility
Cancer & Gemini
When Gemini and Cancer come together in a love affair, it may be a rather curious relationship. Sensitive, emotional Cancer has trouble communicating clearly, but clear communication is what defines Gemini. Gemini’s chivalrous nature and silver tongue may encourage the Crab to come out of its shell more quickly than usual; Cancer, in turn, can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate the world, which the frenetic Twins hardly ever take time to do. If Gemini seems to ignore Cancer or doesn’t provide them with as much reassurance and intimacy as Cancer needs, trouble may ensue. These two Signs approach the world in such different manners that they must be able to understand and accept one another’s differences.
Cancer is the Sign of home and hearth, while Gemini is the thinker. Gemini can easily slip into the role of Cancer’s knight in shining armor; Cancer returns that favor with their characteristic urge to protect the ones they love. Quality of home life is important to Cancer, and Gemini will be spoiled by their Cancer lover’s hearty home cooking, soft bed and other creature comforts. Cancer is strongly intuitive and maintains an almost psychic connection with their loved ones, but can tend toward possessiveness and idealization of their Gemini partner. If Gemini just reassures Cancer that they’re loved and cherished, all will go smoothly.
Gemini is ruled by the Planet Mercury (Communication) and Cancer is ruled by the Moon (Emotions). Cancer tends to keep their emotions bottled up inside as they have trouble expressing themselves. They envy Geminis their gift of open, clear communication afforded by the influence of Mercury. Gemini, in turn, can benefit from Cancer’s intuitive approach, so different from Gemini’s bubbly, surface nature; Cancer can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate life instead of passing by the good things in their rush to get to the next new thing.
Gemini is an Air Sign and Cancer is a Water Sign. If these two Signs can work together they can be a great team; after all, the best decisions are made by incorporating the emotions and the intellect. The trouble for these two lies in learning to cooperate. They come from such opposite points of view that at times it can seem as if they simply have nothing in common. Deep, emotional Cancer can also sometimes dampen Gemini’s airy enthusiasm, and light, fast-paced Gemini can leave Cancer feeling ruffled, even tattered. Balance can be achieved if they learn to talk openly with one another.
Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Cancer is a Cardinal Signs. Gemini is flexible, willing to go with the flow and follow another’s lead; Cancer is an initiator and likes to provide that lead. Gemini may try to lead by being brave, even confrontational; for it to run smoothly between these two, they both need to learn when to back down and let the other lead the way.
What’s the best aspect of the Gemini-Cancer relationship? Once they realize they’re allies, they can soar to great heights together. Gemini is always thinking ahead and Cancer is quietly supporting these ideas behind the scenes. Each partner’s ability to provide what the other is lacking makes theirs a fulfilling relationship
Romantic Compatibility
Cancer & Gemini
When Gemini and Cancer come together in a love affair, it may be a rather curious relationship. Sensitive, emotional Cancer has trouble communicating clearly, but clear communication is what defines Gemini. Gemini’s chivalrous nature and silver tongue may encourage the Crab to come out of its shell more quickly than usual; Cancer, in turn, can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate the world, which the frenetic Twins hardly ever take time to do. If Gemini seems to ignore Cancer or doesn’t provide them with as much reassurance and intimacy as Cancer needs, trouble may ensue. These two Signs approach the world in such different manners that they must be able to understand and accept one another’s differences.
Cancer is the Sign of home and hearth, while Gemini is the thinker. Gemini can easily slip into the role of Cancer’s knight in shining armor; Cancer returns that favor with their characteristic urge to protect the ones they love. Quality of home life is important to Cancer, and Gemini will be spoiled by their Cancer lover’s hearty home cooking, soft bed and other creature comforts. Cancer is strongly intuitive and maintains an almost psychic connection with their loved ones, but can tend toward possessiveness and idealization of their Gemini partner. If Gemini just reassures Cancer that they’re loved and cherished, all will go smoothly.
Gemini is ruled by the Planet Mercury (Communication) and Cancer is ruled by the Moon (Emotions). Cancer tends to keep their emotions bottled up inside as they have trouble expressing themselves. They envy Geminis their gift of open, clear communication afforded by the influence of Mercury. Gemini, in turn, can benefit from Cancer’s intuitive approach, so different from Gemini’s bubbly, surface nature; Cancer can teach Gemini to slow down and appreciate life instead of passing by the good things in their rush to get to the next new thing.
Gemini is an Air Sign and Cancer is a Water Sign. If these two Signs can work together they can be a great team; after all, the best decisions are made by incorporating the emotions and the intellect. The trouble for these two lies in learning to cooperate. They come from such opposite points of view that at times it can seem as if they simply have nothing in common. Deep, emotional Cancer can also sometimes dampen Gemini’s airy enthusiasm, and light, fast-paced Gemini can leave Cancer feeling ruffled, even tattered. Balance can be achieved if they learn to talk openly with one another.
Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Cancer is a Cardinal Signs. Gemini is flexible, willing to go with the flow and follow another’s lead; Cancer is an initiator and likes to provide that lead. Gemini may try to lead by being brave, even confrontational; for it to run smoothly between these two, they both need to learn when to back down and let the other lead the way.
What’s the best aspect of the Gemini-Cancer relationship? Once they realize they’re allies, they can soar to great heights together. Gemini is always thinking ahead and Cancer is quietly supporting these ideas behind the scenes. Each partner’s ability to provide what the other is lacking makes theirs a fulfilling relationship
